Thursday, March 9, 2017
2017 Day One
I always write on this blog for one reason, and one reason only. Today is day ONE of the attempt at a break from the wonderful MaryJane.
So here we are in New York, guess what I do for a living...ha! I'm a blogger! no really tho, I make 75k writing a couple blogs a day inhouse for a real estate company. It's pretty amazing. I had to fall on my face more than once over the last couple years and ran through 4 jobs so far, on to my fifth now and about 5 months here so far. I'm dating the nicest guy ever, he's 22 years old lol but he's really smart and super nice to me. I would love for us to get married, but I'm not sure if he's "the one". basically, it's his age, but I'm happy to be with him until I really am ready to go. Poor little snuggle. He's the best.
So he and I made a bet last night. We are both super competitive. Who could hold out on smoking the longest. I beat my homie and sister then last time I did this in the past, so I figure I should win easily. I'm doing no sugar for Lent right now, and I know i'll lose another 5lbs this week if I refrain from smoking just cause I won't be hungry. I'm actually feeling a little sick already and I'm not even finished with the day. Fancy dinner tonight...woo hoo ;-(
I lowkey wanna puff before dinner to just enjoy it, but its better this way. I'm going to do at least a couple days clean would love a month but I doubt i'll last that long. Still, a week or two is always a good break. I haven't even tried since I last wrote in 2013. I look back on the days of grad school TEN years ago...it doesn't feel like that long. I feel the same. Its strage to be able to look back on my life this way. I remember sitting there writing the first time. I was as old as my boyfriend is now. I haven't changed much. Really...I thought I would def have kids and be all boring and happily settled by now....NOT AT ALL.
My circumstances have changed greatly, but good old me remains the same. I re-read the blog and realize I really can't ever share it with anyone I know in real life. It's pretty real....I'll be writing more in the coming days for the reason I always write...to get out the feelz from not smoking. I expect they will come. I wonder what adventures lie ahead now.
It's been awhile since I wrote so I have to start with a little backstory of where I am now. I've moved to New York City and my life has totally changed. I am turning 33 in a month. I moved to New York about two years ago. Portland Oregon was just not doing it for me anymore. I was going out on the town three nights a week and it was getting me nowhere. I was doing good throwing music events but the city is just too damn small and after a couple more break-ups since I last wrote...there wasn't anyone I was particularly interested in dating.
So here we are in New York, guess what I do for a living...ha! I'm a blogger! no really tho, I make 75k writing a couple blogs a day inhouse for a real estate company. It's pretty amazing. I had to fall on my face more than once over the last couple years and ran through 4 jobs so far, on to my fifth now and about 5 months here so far. I'm dating the nicest guy ever, he's 22 years old lol but he's really smart and super nice to me. I would love for us to get married, but I'm not sure if he's "the one". basically, it's his age, but I'm happy to be with him until I really am ready to go. Poor little snuggle. He's the best.
So he and I made a bet last night. We are both super competitive. Who could hold out on smoking the longest. I beat my homie and sister then last time I did this in the past, so I figure I should win easily. I'm doing no sugar for Lent right now, and I know i'll lose another 5lbs this week if I refrain from smoking just cause I won't be hungry. I'm actually feeling a little sick already and I'm not even finished with the day. Fancy dinner tonight...woo hoo ;-(
I lowkey wanna puff before dinner to just enjoy it, but its better this way. I'm going to do at least a couple days clean would love a month but I doubt i'll last that long. Still, a week or two is always a good break. I haven't even tried since I last wrote in 2013. I look back on the days of grad school TEN years ago...it doesn't feel like that long. I feel the same. Its strage to be able to look back on my life this way. I remember sitting there writing the first time. I was as old as my boyfriend is now. I haven't changed much. Really...I thought I would def have kids and be all boring and happily settled by now....NOT AT ALL.
My circumstances have changed greatly, but good old me remains the same. I re-read the blog and realize I really can't ever share it with anyone I know in real life. It's pretty real....I'll be writing more in the coming days for the reason I always write...to get out the feelz from not smoking. I expect they will come. I wonder what adventures lie ahead now.
